The more we got to know each other the more fear came. I was falling for him, have loved him from the start but I was not telling him that. I didn't want to get his hopes up and have to break each of our hearts when all we could do is chat online. I had to just stay friends so that I wouldn't feel guilty. I didn't want to leave a relationship to be with someone else. If I were to leave it would be for anything but. With all this said to him, he gave up trying. He was hurt and not understanding reality.
The last time I told him " I love you as a friend and we can only be friends" was the last time I saw him for weeks. I missed him. It was quite evident something was wrong with me, everyone asked including my so called boyfriend.
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